'I did this and thought that'-blog. :3

Oh Yu-chan, you... How can you? You cannot! I decided. She wanted me to do a 'I did this and thought that'-blog. But I really suck at it. Okay, okay - I'll try for you, baby. <33

Today... Ehm, what a, nah wouldn't say overrated happy day but it was okay. I had an exam today in math and I suck in math! But that's why I really love the fact that I'm done with it forever and ever. But but but, I got a friend too, why don't we call her Yan, and I'm seriously afraid of losing her. The only thing she tells me is that she really wants to commit suicide. And I really care about that girl! I hate when people tell me they want to commit suicide. It's not fun for the person left alone. And yeah, I wanted to commit suicide once, I almost did commit suicide once but that doesn't mean that I want my friends to give up their lives. I nearly did - they shouldn't! And I just cannot convince her, it's pissing me off. Why are she so stubborn?! Graah, because she's depressed. And I know more about being depressed that other teenagegirls. Cuz I got a depression.. Whoops, and I got too close. So I'll shut my mouth until the next time I'll write about suicide and being depressed. Which I surely will, cuz people find it hard to see the thruth behind a suiciders heart. And mind. Like we're dumb! We're not. Actually we're quite clever. And now I started pronounce myself as a suicider - I'll just cut off the topic now. So so, let's get over this. Suicide and depressive stuff is no good. Back to what I did and thought today. Ehm, my mind really has been filled with all the depressive stuff because of Yan.

Oh yeah, I bought a new pair of shoes, not Jimmy Choo or Christian Louboutin as I wished, but at least they're quite new. 120 mm heel and I love them. There's just one thing about them. They destroy my toes. D: Totally. They just take away all the skin on my toes and it hurts. And my momma always keep saying that surely I must have learned something. I just loooove these shoes too much. Sucks. They said suffer for beauty, and oh, I suffer! T__T'

Well, don't know if there's much to say. Yeah, I got a test tomorrow too - I just hope to write about suicide or being depressed so that I can somehow talk about Yin and the two others friends I have helped. <3

- Yours Yukiko. <3