Smiling while dreaming.

Time for a new blogpost. To tell how I am doing and how my life goes. Which is complicated.

My day today was awesome. I decided to ask my best friend Bim if she wanted to go to the 'big city'. The city in which HCA (Hans Christian Andersen, writer.) was born. Proud? No. Anyway, she has been sick and wasn't sure that it was a good idea she went to the city with the medicine and such. So, of course I was a little sad but I decided not to let it kill my day. So I asked my friend Sugar if she wanted to join me. And she didn't answered so I kinda paniced and wrote to another friend, whom I don't see often, Yu-chan if she would join me. Then Sugar answered and we arranged the trip. When I sat in the bus, I talked to my neighbour. Haven't spoke with him since 2007 or so. He's on my age - my first crush. *blushing* He was going to take his final test for drivers license today. I really hope it went well for him and he passed. He has been growing so. I really can't imagine he was that cute little guy I fell in love with. He's so mature - and such a nerd. But he's really sweet. Really. The woman he gets is really lucky. And best of luck from me. Well well, to get back to the point - it really changed my day that I spoke to him again. Then Yu-chan wrote me. She was in city with her cousin and I could visit them until Sugar arrived. So I saw Yu-chan today. Saw her the last time 1st of March. So yeah, that I could hug her and smile and see her smile. It was amazing. <3 Then Sugar arrived. And oh, I've missed her! She's an amazing friend. One of our friends wrote me, asked if she could join. I said no. Felt so great! And I had Sugar with me, all alone. We went shopping and I spent too many money. But I didn't buy a pair of stilettoes. And that was so GREAT. You can't imagine. Sugar and I ended talking about what we would do if we won 10 million Euro or more. It was so cool. I mean, it's crazy to think, right? What I would do? Buy a car and an apartment in Berlin. And then go shopping in NYC. Eheheh, I love designers and if shopping has to be right - you're shopping in NYC. End of discussion. I'm a little crazy, I know. And I realized that I really love Marcel Gothow. I know, I've been lying to myself. Saying he was named Robert Baumann - but I know, deep down in my heart, that it's Marcel. How I know? I don't know. But well, I love him! Miss Universe (Another friend of mine) and I was talking about having a job as soulhealer. Wouldn't it be nice. "Hey, what are you doing today?" "I'm a soulhealer." "Oh, I've always thought that job was so exiting." Ahaha, you see the point? But it's tough to heal souls. It affects me so much to do. Yet I keep doing it. I spoke to my parents - they accepted Yu-chan. They need to accept KatjaKaj and Mai too. They're really amazing people. What they haven't been doing to me. What they haven't prevented. I love them. And I know that Bim gets jaloux when I say it, but hey. I really do love them. I owe them everything. And I owe Bim the universe. And she knows. I hope.

I've started listening to an old band. Have always been loving their music. Danish, so neither of you would understand if I posted a song. ^^ I think I'll translate and quote one of my favorite chorus. Hope you get the message of the translation even though it sounds better in danish. Så er det du kan mærke at du lever - Then you can feel that you're living. så er det du kan mærke hjertet slår - Then you can feel that your heart is beating. så er det du kan danse på vulkanen - Then you can dance on the volcano. så er det du får medvind i håret - Then you get tailwind in the hair. Du mærker du kan styre lige mod toppen - You feel you can aim at the top. og alle bare smiler på din vej - And everybody is smiling on your way. du mærker du kan elske hele verden - You feel you can love the entire world. og alle døre åbnes for dig …hey-yeah-yeah - And that every door opens for you. Hele verden den ligger åben for dig - The entire world is lying open for you feet. Hope you get it, you guys. ^^, Yeah, my life is complicated. I know. My life sucks. I know. But I'm so stubborn that I would wish I would give up. I just cannot. We'll see each other soon, hopefully. Sorry for the late update.

- Yours Yukiko.