Why is it so easy?

Why is it so easy to cry right now? I thought I was tough. That I could handle everything.
Why is it so easy to be fragile right now? I thought I could stand every pain.
Why is it so easy to flee right now? I thought I was able to live my life with no regret.
Why is it so easy to punish right now? I thought I was never going to hate anybody this way.
Why is it so easy to scream silently right now? I thought I would be able to say the words.
Why is it so easy to ignore right now? I thought I would push away myself for everybody.

Why is it so extremely hard to say it out loud to the people I love?!
Why is it so extremely hard to die?!
Why is it so extremely hard to admit it?!
Why is it so extremely hard to scream out loud?!
Why is it so extremely hard to get out of this cocoon?!