No..

Honestly, I just need someone to tell there's something wrong with me. When I read about it all - everybody says there is a reason. The depressed ones may have been living in a family with an alcoholic father or whatever. The anoretic ones just.. Just are way too young. The cutting ones (or selfdestructive ones) also may have been living in a family who have had a divorce.

I have nothing. Nothing. No divorce, no alcoholic things. I have simply no reason. Yeah, my confidence in myself is like zero. It never was more than 2 on a scale of 100. So, I would have started to get used to it, right. But I just... don't. Now, when I got friends. I am so... misunderstood. So stupid. And everybody says "make it go away, you're way better than that.", "promise me, you'll do an effort to make it go away." and stuff like that. I would make an effort, but.. How in the world am I supposed to do that? I don't even lose weight fast. Hell.. I'm just the person, sitting here - trying to understand why I feel this way and accept it.